Choosing happiness

“Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.” -Dalai Lama

In the past, I would have characterized myself as a "glass half-empty" type of person.  But this year, I started seeing things through a different lens.  It has been so refreshing to look at the glass and think "half-full".  However, it takes time for new habits to become completely integrated into day-to-day thinking.

Over the past few weeks, I went back to the old way of thinking.  I have been so unhappy and feeling completely stuck.  I kept thinking to myself...  

I'd be happy if... I could find a part time job. 

I'd be happy if... I found a roommate.

I'd be happy if... I didn't have to go on this business trip.

I'd be happy if... I could lose a few pounds (yes, I know that has nothing to do with things - but when I'm unhappy, the first thing I attack is my weight!). 

But putting conditions around my happiness left me disappointed and frustrated.  Seeing the glass as half-empty only left me wanting more.

So I am giving myself a gentle reminder.  I can choose to be happy with where I am today, right at this moment.  Happiness isn't something I'll achieve in the future if I can just accomplish X, Y, and Z.  I can find peace and joy in knowing that life is RIGHT NOW.

If I turn off the negativity and look at what I DO have, I realize that...

... I'm happy that I get to spend a few more weeks with my friends at work.

... I'm happy that I have time to learn and practice a new meditation technique before I leap into the unknown.

... I am happy that I'm strong enough to realize that my job is toxic and walk away from it.

... I'm happy that I have great friends who'll be by my side on this journey.

... I am happy that I have this blog as a place to share and explore my feelings.

'A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.' - Herm Albright